Scribbling Books!

Do you see the short description of my blog? "Nadya's Virtual Scribbling Book" that term is inspired by my old scribbling books from when I was in High School. Those books were the place where I could write and mostly draw anything. Those books were basically my playground, they were the one I ran to whenever I felt bored or whenever the teacher got too boring.

Meet the awesome trio!

The one in the center is my first scribbling book I used it in 10th grade, the left on for 11th grade and the right one in 12th grade.

 take a peek!

High School, those times when I could just run to my scribbling book and pretend that the teacher wasn't there, I miss you. 

Norwegian Wood

Norwegian Wood 

(ノルウェイの森 Noruwei no Mori)

Haruki Murakami, Japan, 1987

I had been looking for this particular book for so long until I accidentally stumbled upon it in 'Books&Beyond' near my home. It took me pretty long to read it, not because the amount of pages but because how busy college had been making me. To tell you the truth I was interested in this book only because its title. "Norwegian Wood". its title is taken from one of my favorite The Beatles song.

Norwegian Wood is set in Tokyo, 1960. The protagonist and narrator of the story is Toru Watanabe. This story starts when a mid-aged Toru accidentally hears 'Norwegian Wood' and it leads him to reminiscing his youth in 1960s. Toru is a just a regular high school student when his best friend, Kizuki, commits suicide. The death of Kizuki changes his life forever. It draws him closer with Naoko. Naoko is Kizuki's girlfriend, preferably soulmate. She is a beautiful girl, yet she is emotionally unstable and fragile. As the time goes by, they try to move on with their life. However, the loss of Kizuki becomes too much for Naoko to handle and so she moves away, to a place where she could try to find peace within her self. Meanwhile in college, Toru meets a woman, Midori. She's free-spirited, carefree, and passionate. She's the opposite of Naoko. But no matter how much he's attracted to her, Naoko still owns him.

This story tells about loss, grief, passion, patience, and most of all Loneliness. I would say 'love' but I'm not really sure. The plot is very simple yet memorable. It sounds light but it's not. It deals with deep, mature matters. It's definitely not a classic triangle love story. 

The characters are very complex and realistic. All the characters have their own part to play in the story. none of them is a filler character. None of them got to waste.

This book can be depressing, but at the same time it can also be evoking hopes. Between those gloomy and sad pages, there are some pages which make you think "it will be alright".

The first time I started reading this book I became uninterested, I didn't understand the characters and I felt it was kind of boring. But, as I continued on reading, I couldn't help but wanting to read more of it. I eventually understood Toru's point of view and the other characters' complexity. I couldn't relate to the story at all, but somehow all the characters and conditions feels so realistic.

Maybe some of you are wondering what it has to do with The Beatles' Norwegian Wood. Well, for instance I'd like to point out that this song is played a lot in the story.

“That song can make me feel so sad,” said Naoko. “I don't know, I guess I imagine myself wandering in a deep wood. I'm all alone and it's cold and dark, and nobody comes to save me. That's why Reiko never plays it unless I request it.”
- Naoko about Norwegian Wood

However, after you read the book I'm pretty sure you'll see how this song really represents the whole story. In my opinion the melodies and the lyrics of this song fit the book perfectly. 

by the way, one of my favorite thing about this book is how often it quotes The Beatles' song. It feels like a slight of sunshine between the all storms.



This book is definitely worth reading, one of the best book I've read.

3.75/5


if you're interested in reading it, I recommend you to also listen to the song :)
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For your warning this books is filled with many sexual contents & suicidal people. It's absolutely not recommended for anyone under 18. Even I honestly felt a little uncomfortable reading it. 

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“And what can life be worth if the first rehearsal for life is life itself?”

Milan Kundera, The Unbearable Lightness of Being

"Kenapa lu namain?"

Okay, it's just some random conversation which happened in one of those endless nights when my friends chose to stay at my place. And yes, they stay in my place a lot.

It was getting late, and we were preparing to sleep
Lintang : Eh liat boneka Smile ga?
Gua      : Hah Smile?... Elmo?
Lintang : Iya yang itu..
Gua      : oh disitu, .......Kok lo namain boneka gua sih? gua aja ga pernah..!

*krik*......

Neil Young - Only Love Can Break Your Heart

When you were young
and on your own
How did it feel
to be alone?
I was always thinking
of games that I was playing.
Trying to make
the best of my time.
But only love
can break your heart
Try to be sure
right from the start
Yes only love
can break your heart
What if your world
should fall apart?
I have a friend
I've never seen
He hides his head
inside a dream
Someone should call him
and see if he can come out.
Try to lose
the down that he's found.
But only love
can break your heart
Try to be sure

 right from the start
Yes only love
can break your heart
What if your world
should fall apart

2 0 1 2 MEGA POST

This post is dedicated to the unforgettable 2012 

2012

The year where I had dreamed, strived, tried, believed, and fallen

The year where I had grieved and cried like never before

The year I learnt, sometimes God has better plan

The year I got to say Good Bye to School life, and say Hello to University Life

The year I learnt to let go of past

The year where I met hundreds of new people

The year I left my home

The year which decided the future

The year that changed me forever

2012.

The first part of this year I was Nadya Rizki, the 12th grade student of SMAN 8 Tangerang. The girl who was madly obsessed with ITB, which stickers filled the cover of her notebook. My life revolved around studying and itb. Ah life was easy.  I went to school at 6.30, went home at 3, sometime there were courses and then I'd spend the night home. And then I was chosen to be a part of the BTS comitee, it was complicated and not exactly fun but I didn't regret being a part of it. Then UN came, we all went our seperate ways, but since most of us went to the same tutoring courses, we still met each other everyday.

This year, my home got renovated.  After hundreds of times discussing to move to a more developed city, we finally decided to just renovate our home. It got bigger, and yes my room got wider. And I've told you before, you must have seen the picture too, I drew a world map.  one of my favorite part about this room.

And then SNMPTN, one of the biggest day in my life,  I had been really sure I'd get in. Honestly it still hurts to remember about it. As I said, this year I had fallen, I had grieved, I had cried like never before. My friend once told me that 'failing' doesn't exist in my dictionary. Well, it does now.
I was caught, traumatized. Not sure whether I should start dreaming again or not.
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At the begining of this year, I was a girl full of dream, passion and glee.
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I didn't get ITB (obviously), but I got accepted in UNPAD and UI. There was a war inside my head, UNPAD is in Bandung, and you know how much I love that city. But, I chose UI (as you know it) and here it began, my life as a university student..

So, I moved out and I've been living in Depok. There are so many changes in my life right now. So many new faces, new people with new characters. I need to adapt, fast. You know that I'm not good with strangers, I'm still trying to improve my self in that part. So many new friends too. To sum it up, I feel like I had just moved to a new home. I got a new family too. In this family, I'm still trying to see which part of this family I'd fit in. I also meet these great people I call bestfriends. Honestly I don't know what would I be without them.

College life! I guess I shouldn't whine, no matter how hard it is being in Mathematics. The way I see it, it's really different from high school. In High School, there were still some people whose grade were always below yours. But now, it's just so unexpected. Everyone is madly competing to be the best. You close your eyes for a second and suddenly you're alone at the bottom of this mad chain. Oh and I took a part of LOGKA2013 comitee!
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at the end of 2012 I was a girl who doesn't really know where she's going, living life as how it's given.
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This year was closed with UAS hahah, such a fun way to end the year of suprises ;)
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Thank You 2012

For the experience you gave

For those smiles and laughters

For those tears and killed dreams

For the lessons

For everything

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Let's wish for a GREATER2013! 

within the sound of silence...

I seriously want to start this year with happy blogpost, I want it to be started with something positive, something good. But,  nothing's been good to me.

It's holiday, I had waited for too long to let it be a waste. But, in this holiday I've become a mess. I really lose it. Bad, scary, negative thoughts come back rushing to me, consuming me worse then ever. I feel like giving up, I don't even know what I'm fighting for. I'm just tired. I need a rest from all of these thoughts, I want to take my brains off and stop thinking for a while, just be stupid and inconsiderate.

Suddenly I understand the song "The Sound of Silence" from Simon&Garfunkle