6th of July

do you know how it feels like when you've been living your life, giving all you've got for only one goal, and suddenly you fail. You just fail, and you will never be able to reach that goal anymore. Your life crumbles down and you no longer know what to do with your life anymore. You try to be okay, you want to be okay but you can't. You wonder what are you gonna do from now, how will you move on with your life.

You had it all pictured out, you had everything perfectly planned, you knew what you were going to do 5 years from now, but now all those plans will never be realized because you just simply fail.

People tell you to dream big, and to believe it. they keep telling you your dream will come true. And so you give everything, you put all your energy and time to make sure that it will work out. People assure you that you're gonna make it. So you believe it, after all every wise man tells us to believe our dream.

When you fail, people can offer nothing but empty words of comfort, those words don't mean a thing for you. you keep on asking "why?" and you keep trying to say that everything is a lie, that you're gonna wake up and find everything is alright. But no it's not. you fail. it's as simple as that. it's not a lie nor it is a dream.
You tell people you're alright, you act as if it doesn't really effect you. So you brushed people's concern with a simple laugh.

You used to be the epitome of optimism, you tried to cheer for everyone wishing them luck and all. You used to be so sure of your success. -but now you're standing in sidelines, watching everyone but you having their success, celebrating their own victory.