The time of change: WAKING UP

Have you ever re-considered everything in your life? Have you ever regretted wasting time? because that's exactly what I'm mourning about right now. I feel like I had been sleeping way too much, not literary it's just a phase. Looking back to my past, I asked my self, "what have you accomplished?"and the answer was shamefully nothing. All these 16 freaking years and I feel like there's nothing to be proud about. I keep telling people (and my self) to keep on dreaming. but I might had forgotten about one specific quote that I do love so much.
I forget the exact word but it went on something like this: 

"The first thing you have to do to achieve your dream is WAKE UP"

yes, WAKE UP. As a girl who has accomplished almost nothing in her life my targets are really high : 

1. Accepted in Institute Technology Bandung
2. Get a scholarship to take the postgraduate education in New York University

ITB

For now, those two are my biggest target, especially the first one. When I told my friends about it, 98% of them just laughed, thinking that I was joking but hell no! I sure am not the most diligent person in the planet, or even in my class, but sometimes you just have to push your self off the limit. I think it's kinda weird and funny at the same time. One day, my best friend Mayang asked me, "Nadya, you have no passion to go to school every day, and you're not diligent, and you hate the assignments. Why do you want to go to an university that absolutely will make you spend your years studying?"  The answer is, I know that I'm lazy. but I'm young, I really want to make my time the most of it. I don't want to spend it easily. Yes now you may think that I'm really weird. One thing about me is, I never see my self as someone who can't. I always see my self as an underachiever. I always feel like 'actually I can do it, I just need to make some attempts and definitely more efforts.' and yes I'm over confident and it's not healthy. But it's one thing that can keep me keep on believing that I can achieve my dreams. 

Time of change: WAKING UP.

As from now on, I won't think 'actually I can do it, I just need to make some attempts and definitely more efforts.' anymore because From now, I'm gonna change. I'm gonna make those attempts and I'm absolutely going to give much more efforts. I'm gonna push my self much harder. It's gonna be rough, but there are somethings in life that need to be done.