STOP CRYING YOUR HEART OUT

Dear my OhSoQuiet blog, have I ever told you why I named you 'juststopcryingyourheartout' ?
The name is pretty long, and it definitely doesn't tell people who is the girl behind the computer. Well, I wanted to name it something that reveals my name, like 'diarynadya' or 'nadyanotes' 'nadeeyalife' but I realized that it's just way too boring and stereotyped. Then I remember this super awesome song, whose lyrics really inspires me

Oasis - Stop Crying Your Heart Out

Hold up... hold on... don't be scared
You'll never change what's been and gone
May your smile (may your smile) shine on (shine on)
Don't be scared (don't be scared)
Your destiny may keep you warm

'Cause all of the stars have faded away
Just try not to worry, you'll see them someday
Take what you need and be on your way
And stop crying your heart out

Get up (get up) come on (come on)
Why you scared? (I'm not afraid...)
You'll never change what's been and gone

'Cause all of the stars have faded away
Just try not to worry, you'll see them someday
Take what you need and be on your way
And stop crying your heart out

'Cause all of the stars have faded away
Just try not to worry, you'll see them someday
Just take what you need and be on your way
And stop crying your heart out

We're all of the stars
We're fading away
Just try not to worry, you'll see us someday
Just take what you need and be on your way
And stop crying your heart out

Stop crying your heart out
Stop crying your heart out
Stop crying your heart out...

The lyric never fails to make me feels better

it's like saying that everytime you're down, broken, or when your world is crashing down, you don't need to be afraid. You don't need to keep mourning and regretting because you can't change what's been and done. it has happened. Now wake up! Take what you need! and be on your way!

JUST STOP CRYING YOUR HEART OUT

ra-ra-rambling

Hello again :D
So it's Monday, and I already miss Sunday like so damn much! School is kinda killing me with those tests and the fact that I have to get good grades. I told you that I'll have some improvement. Well I guess I'm trying. but it's getting harder, it feels like everything I do will never be enough. I should never have taken anything for granted. Right?

I really am tired. I barely have time for my self! Now every time I go home from school, it's whether I have to go to the tutoring or work out. None of them is fun. But once again, Sometimes we have to push our self to its limit. and there are some things that need to be done. do whatever it takes \m/

I'm just a normal girl, I envy those who look good with no effort, I envy those who have passion for studying. I get jealous to those who have a lover on their side. Because unlike them, I have to work pretty hard to get what they already have. But I believe that the difficulty will only thicken my skin

The time of change: WAKING UP

Have you ever re-considered everything in your life? Have you ever regretted wasting time? because that's exactly what I'm mourning about right now. I feel like I had been sleeping way too much, not literary it's just a phase. Looking back to my past, I asked my self, "what have you accomplished?"and the answer was shamefully nothing. All these 16 freaking years and I feel like there's nothing to be proud about. I keep telling people (and my self) to keep on dreaming. but I might had forgotten about one specific quote that I do love so much.
I forget the exact word but it went on something like this: 

"The first thing you have to do to achieve your dream is WAKE UP"

yes, WAKE UP. As a girl who has accomplished almost nothing in her life my targets are really high : 

1. Accepted in Institute Technology Bandung
2. Get a scholarship to take the postgraduate education in New York University

ITB

For now, those two are my biggest target, especially the first one. When I told my friends about it, 98% of them just laughed, thinking that I was joking but hell no! I sure am not the most diligent person in the planet, or even in my class, but sometimes you just have to push your self off the limit. I think it's kinda weird and funny at the same time. One day, my best friend Mayang asked me, "Nadya, you have no passion to go to school every day, and you're not diligent, and you hate the assignments. Why do you want to go to an university that absolutely will make you spend your years studying?"  The answer is, I know that I'm lazy. but I'm young, I really want to make my time the most of it. I don't want to spend it easily. Yes now you may think that I'm really weird. One thing about me is, I never see my self as someone who can't. I always see my self as an underachiever. I always feel like 'actually I can do it, I just need to make some attempts and definitely more efforts.' and yes I'm over confident and it's not healthy. But it's one thing that can keep me keep on believing that I can achieve my dreams. 

Time of change: WAKING UP.

As from now on, I won't think 'actually I can do it, I just need to make some attempts and definitely more efforts.' anymore because From now, I'm gonna change. I'm gonna make those attempts and I'm absolutely going to give much more efforts. I'm gonna push my self much harder. It's gonna be rough, but there are somethings in life that need to be done.