Best Coast - Our Deal

Please treat your self by watching this star-studded music video of Best Coast - Our Deal. Not just because the song its self is really nice, but also because it is directed by Drew Barrymore and has Chloë Moretz, Tyler Posey, Miranda Cosgrove, Alia Shawkat, and even Shailene Woodley in one video. 

 

You're Welcome ;) 

From Finner

Hello again!
I feel like I haven't done this blog justice for I have pretty much abandoned it for about 5 months. Well, my life has been in a whirlwind these past months. There had been many times when I tried to write something but ending up not liking it and saving it in the draft folders.

Anyway, a few days ago a very close friend of mine asked  "Have you ever regretted your decision to move to ITB?" It was an expected question, I know she had had it on the tip of her tongue for so long, it was only a matter of time.

Well, my answer has always been the same, even from the day one. "No"

Just like what Nelson Mandela once said

 "May your choices reflect your hopes, not your fears”

That quote is so beautiful and it inspires me so much. It was really hard to decide whether to move or not, I was afraid of so many things, I was afraid of not having friends, I was afraid of having my expectations too high, I was afraid of wasting all the comfort I've earned in UI, and many other things. But then I remembered that quote and I realize that I don't want to spend my life based on my fears, I don't want to spend my life thinking "what ifs" because you know at the end of the day you only regret the chances you didn't take. So no matter how bad it gets, at the very least I can always take pride in knowing that I have defeated my fears.

I'd be lying if I said that I didn't have hard time adapting in here, but I also learned so many things, things I never really understood before. I learned some of it the hard way, I wish I can save some of your time by writing it here.

• Being alone won't make you feel lonely. You'll feel lonely when you are among the people who do not care about you being there. In short, it's much much much better to be alone rather than be with those people.
• Most of the bad things are only in your mind, that's why you need to try to be as positive as possible
• Most of the people are not as bad as you thought they were, you just need to know them a little bit better. 
• But, there are also some people who are just plainly a pain in the ass and they don't deserve any of your time nor your sympathy.
• Yes, a quality time with your self is needed once in a while, but too much of it can be venomous.
• If you don't make the first move, no one else will.
• At the end of the day you will only have your self, and darling if you don't take care of your self good enough you will have a hell of ride trying to put everything together.

Other than those lessons, I too, have met so many wonderful people that are slowly making me feel 'home' in Bandung. Just like I've told you before, I'm surely, slowly falling for the people too. 

 

"And we are far from home, but we're so happy
Far from home, all alone, but we're so happy "

-Of Monster and Men - From Finner-

Celeste and Jesse Forever

 

"Do you wanna be right or wanna be happy?"

I had been looking for this movie everywhere possible and when I had lost hope I suddenly found its DVD in a store near my home right at the bottom of the stacks.  I didn't think twice and bought it right away, it was the best thing happened to me today. Celeste and Jesse Forever easily made its way to my list of favorite movies. This movie is just that great. 

The story revolves around two best friends, Celeste & Jesse. They have been together since forever. They dated, got married, and somewhere along the way their marriage didn't work out very well because Jesse didn't have any 'real job' therefore he wasn't the kind of man Celeste wanted to build a family with. Jesse is a very laid-back, immature guy, he does art for living but he doesn't seem to be serious about it, while Celeste is a successful trend forecaster who just released a book and also has a firm working in marketing sector. Although their friends disapprove, Both Celeste and Jesse believe that their divorce won't affect their friendship and they'll still be best friend forever. They even still live together although Jesse lives in the garage behind the house, they still do their routine together and have dinner together. The problem starts to arise when Jesse tries to get serious with a girl and Celeste finds that she might not be ready to move on. 

While the plot sounds very cliche, the movie is far from it. I believe this movie has just proved that Romantic-Comedy movie can be more than just about entertaining its viewers. Each of the main characters have their own complexity and issues to be solved, I was actually surprised by the depth they show. Both Jones and Samberg really blow me away, they portray the character very well; the love, the emotions, the anger, the hurts, everything was shown delicately. And the chemistry between them is amazing, you can actually feel how much their character love each other, it's kind of surprising since none of them had played drama  before.

One of my favorite thing from this movie is how real it is. The characters are not perfect, they are not superficial, they are so humane and very much alive. The story isn't fairytale, it isn't very dramatic but still manages to be enticing, it has the right portion of melodrama and comedy. 

 

It's a story of loving someone, it's a story of moving on,  it's a story of finding your self and giving it a chance.

It's definitely one of my favorite romantic movie ever, and you should all probably watch it too :-) 

Bersama Banda Neira

        2 dari 3 post terakhir gua berhubungan dengan sekelompok musisi yang lagi sangat gua gandrungi, Mereka adalah Banda Neira. Kebetulan kemarin sempat buat review album terbaaru mereka untuk tugas dari 8EH jadi sekalian aja dipost disini, siapa tahu ada yang baca dan tertarik untuk mencoba musik mereka.

        Mungkin bagi sebagian besar telinga pecinta musik tanah air nama “Banda Neira” masih terdengar sangat asing, Banda Neira adalah duo musisi pop-folk yang terdiri atas Ananda Badudu and Rara Sekar. Setelah tahun lalu mengeluarkan EP “Di Paruh Waktu”, pada bulan Mei 2013 kemarin Banda Neira  merilis album pertama mereka yang berjudul “Berjalan Lebih Jauh.”  Mereka mengakui bahwa awalnya Banda Neira merupakan proyek iseng saja, namun dengan dorongan dan support baik secara materil dan moral dari kawan-kawan Koperasi Keluarga Besar Mahasiswa Universitas Parahyangan (KKBM Unpar) akhirnya album pertama ini berhasil diproduksi dibawah Sorge Records.

        Dengan alunan gitar yang apik dan lirik-lirik berbahasa Indonesia yang puitis, Banda Neira benar-benar membawa pendengarnya bagaikan  berada dalam suatu dimensi lain yang jauh dari hirukpikuk kehidupan kota.  Walaupun warna musik mereka seringkali dijuluki sebagai “Nelangsa Pop”, lagu-lagu Banda Neira tidak melulu merupakan lagu sendu atau yang sering disebut anak muda jaman sekarang “galau”. Dalam Album ini terdapat banyak track yang malah akan membuat pendengarnya bersemangat seperti track andalan mereka “Berjalan Lebih Jauh”  yang mengajak pendengarnya untuk ‘bangun’, atau ada juga “Diatas Kapal Kertas” yang terdengar sangat jenaka. 

        Apabila ingin tahu lebih lanjut silahkan kunjungi  http://dibandaneira.tumblr.com/ dimana mereka berbagi mengenai pengalaman mereka  dan juga info-info yang sangat menarik. Album mereka pun dapat dibeli di Sorgemagz, KKBM Unpar, Omuniuum, Kineruku, dll.

FORSIL 2013

Since the last post tells about my experience there, I think I should put some pictures here, just to show off a little  ;)


"Make a new scene, make it happy ending"
 

The people I miss the most ~

 

Bliss, Remembrance & Closure

Few weeks ago, on 15th November 2013 I decided to visit my old family, the Mathematics Department of Universitas Indonesia. I came to fulfill my promise to attend one of the biggest event my angkatan held, it was FORSIL 2013.

Coming there, I didn't know what to expect, I was very giddy, nervous, afraid and excited at the same time. I thought coming there would be the best option to give my self the much needed closure, I thought that by coming there I would be able to satisfy all of this longing and curiosity. I thought that coming there would solve everything and I'd be able to really move on.

Damnit, I had never been more wrong.

Coming there was like a vacation, very fun and exhilarating. Coming there was like coming home, so comfortable and warm. Coming there was easily one of the best moments in these few months. 

It was so easy to laugh, for once I really got all the jokes. It had been such a long time since the last time I laughed that hard, it had been way too long since the last time I laughed 'till my stomach literally hurt. 

I hadn't talked that long with someone, coming there I feel like I found my self again, my carefree self who couldn't care less about what next word to say, whether this will offend the people in front of me or not, whether it's okay or not to express my opinion about certain things & so much more. 

It was effortless, being happy was effortless, being comfortable was effortless. everything I did there was so effortless. I love seeing those familiar faces I know by heart, I love knowing that I still have a home there.

And then it hit me, how much I missed everything.

I miss the people. I miss their scents, I miss their laughter, I miss their sense of humor, I miss the safety I felt around them, I miss how easy it was to laugh with them. I miss them

I miss the building, yes I actually miss the building. I used to hate it, I hated how unmaintained it was, I hated how it had to be closed at 6 pm, I hated the restroom and I even hated the stairs. But I didn't realize that it provided me a place to belong. Being a new student in ITB means that you gotta stick around in common buildings or library with the strangers whom you can't talk to and people you'd rather avoid. It's just so different, I'm so used to hanging around in the hall or 'teras matek' whenever I got nothing to do, there we could gather around, just doing nothing, chitchating, doing homeworks, and just being together. But now I feel like a lost puppy whenever I have no classes.

There are many other things to be missed but I'd rather not go into details.

Well, here I am living my dream yet it's still hard for me to move on from the past, not to mention that I have been missing out so much. I'm not going to try catching up with those things I've missed because it would be left in vain. Slowly but surely I know I have to back out, I know that I'm losing my place and it's okay, maybe. I honestly don't know how long I can keep this up, sometimes in my lowest point I feel like changing my phone numbers, making new accounts and forgetting everything. But we all know that it is a very stupid idea because you can't choose which memories to remember, you can only choose to pretend ignoring them.

Coming there again had made it clear, that I'm never going to forget about them, about everything that had happened the past year. And  that's what saddens me the most, coming there had made me realize that I could be that happy. It had made me remember that it's possible to feel Home outside my real home.

You might think I'm exaggerating things, But it's me we're talking about. I'm the worst person when it comes to adapting into new things , I'm also very bad at being close to new people, I'm like a lump of awkwardness to the people I'm not close with. That's why when I feel comfortable around certain people or things, I always get too attached.

Perhaps it was just because I visited them at the time when the euphoria was so thick on the air, or perhaps it was because I hadn't expect my trip to Depok would be that fun. Perhaps it was because I didn't let myself to admit how much I miss everything. 

But, I feel like I haven't said enough thank you to all of them, especially MAT12ICES.
Thank you for being my family, for the past year, even until now and beyond. Thank you for not forgetting me, I really love the quote you gave me "You'll always be a part of us and you will never walk alone" ,I wish you all endless success and don't forget to have fun! I love you all so much!  

And to the people I could never forget, Ditya, Insan, Kinan, Lintang, Maria, Niken, Ova, Zainul.
You know how much I love you all. Try not to forget me yaa!<3

Well, for a friendly reminder, I don't regret moving. I don't think I ever will, It has always been my one big lifetime dream, it is a choice that have no space for regret. I'm falling hard for this city, I love its weather, I love coming back to my room finding it's warm when it's freezing outside and the opposite. I love the atmosphere, and I'm surely, slowly falling for the people too. 

I guess all I can do is to just keep walking, walking, and walking

Life is going to be so wonderful
One day I'll look back saying endless thank you. Amin

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1000 Words

10:41 pm

25 November 2013

This post has been my final closure.

Di Beranda

....

Dan jika suatu saat 
Buah hatiku, buah hatimu 
Untuk sementara waktu pergi
 Usahlah kau pertanyakan 

ke mana kakinya kan melangkah
 Kita berdua tahu, dia pasti

Pulang ke rumah

....

Diatas merupakan petikan lirik dari lagu "Di Beranda" oleh sekelompok musisi yang sedang mendominasi playlist gua sehari-hari, Banda Neira. Lagu ini menceritakan mengenai dialog seorang ayah dan ibu tentang anaknya yang sedang merantau. Mungkin terkesan aneh kalau gua memetik lagu ini, gua bukan seorang ibu, dan jelas sekali belum punya anak. Namun setelah membaca blog mereka lebih lanjut, ternyata kata-kata di lirik ini sebenarnya kata-kata yang ingin disampaikan sang penulis untuk ibunya yang disamarkan dalam bentuk dialog ayah-ibu. Ya, seakan-akan ayah nya lah berkata seperti itu pada ibunya, padahal sebenarnya ini adalah curahan hati anak untuk ibunya. Bait diatas merupakan bait favorit gua, Entah kenapa, bait ini memiliki daya tarik yang sangat tinggi, Bagi gua bait ini memiliki optimisme, keyakinan seorang anak, kepercayaan sang orang tua, dan kehangatan sebuah rumah.

'Such a beautiful lyric', itu pikiran pertama gua setelah mendengar lagu ini, namun kedua kali mendengar lagu ini, tiba-tiba sesuatu mengganggu pikiran gua. Apakah gua sudah dapat mengatakan hal tersebut kepada kedua orang tua gua? Ya gua memang merantau di kota orang, namun jarak nya dapat ditempuh dalam 4 jam perjalanan, bahkan gua pun selalu pulang ke rumah setidaknya 2 minggu sekali. Apakah gua sudah pantas mengatakan hal tersebut disaat jarak kurang lebih 200 km merupakan satu-satunya penghalang gua dengan rumah? Bukannya gua ingin jauh-jauh dari rumah, apalagi dari orang tua, God knows I can't stay in Bandung more than 2 weeks without seeing them, maksud gua adalah bahwa gua belum berjalan cukup jauh, tempat gua berada sekarang terasa terlalu normal, hampir terlalu aman malah, maka dari itu gua masih harus berjalan jauh untuk melihat dunia lebih luas lagi

Lagu ini mengingatkan gua akan satu mimpi yang hampir gua lupakan; Keliling Dunia! tahun lalu bahkan gua melukis sebuah peta dunia besar di dinding kamar gua, tujuannya selain untuk memperindah kamar adalah untuk mengingatkan gua bahwa dunia bukan hanya kamar gua, namun ada dunia luar, dan saat melukis itu gua berjanji bahwa suatu hari gua akan melihat peta dunia tersebut dengan bangga karena gua sudah mengunjungi tempat-tempat di peta tersebut. Amin. Rasanya ingin segera lulus dan mencari beasiswa ke luar negeri, ke negara entah berantah disana. Ingin segera menapakan kaki di negara yang tak dikenal, ingin belajar sesuatu yang baru, ingin melakukan hal besar, ingin segera berpetualang dan berjalan jauh, jauh, jauh. Terdengar sangat mengandai-andai memang, semester satu saja belum selesai tapi soksokan sekali sudah bicara tentang pendidikan selanjutnya. Ya namanya juga sedang bersemangat.....

Mungkin nanti, pada saat itu gua bisa mengatakan bait terebut kepada orang tua gua, di saat gua sudah melangkah jauh, menentukan pilihan hidup sendiri, dan menemukan petualangan baru. 

Semoga nanti, suatu saat, gua bisa membanggakan orang tua gua, dan membalas semua kepercayaan serta doa-doa dari mereka.

Amin

Dan apabila mungkin ada yang penasaran, ini lagunya :)