Big Bang - Lies

Here I introduce you to the first Korean song that I truly like, it's not the song that got me into the KPOP world, I barely knew anything back then. I had this song in my hand phone without even caring about the singer. I only knew that this song is good.

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If there's anything I learned today, it's that I will never ever win any argument with my parent. that's why most of the times I choose to go away without finishing the argument. I know it's impolite but If I stay it would just make me be angry and lose my temper. And that will only lead to worsening the matter. 
And honestly, no matter how right I am, It's not like they will listen to my opinion anyway. So I should have known that I don't stand a chance to win at all.

wanderlust

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Today I realized so many things, Although I regret some of things I did/didn't do. I am very grateful of where I am now, I am very grateful that I didn't let my emotion take over that far.  I feel like I am back to my sense right now. Maybe I have been given time to rethink all the possibilities that lie ahead me. Let's just hope for the best!

Love Lost - Temper Trap

Picking a song to post on this blog had never been this hard, well there's a reason for everything

unspoken

Maybe I am the only one who noticed that there are too many words left unspoken
Those words which always stopped right before our lips. They never made any sound, They stayed inside and maybe one day we'll go too far to remember those words, and They'll finally die inside.

Maybe it's better to keep it this way. But 'maybe' is a word of possibilities. Maybe it's better if Einstein didn't found the Formula of Relativity, maybe, maybe maybe. we would never know... 

Maybe those words are never meant to be spoken, yeah maybe.
They say what's meant to be will always find its way, So I guess it's not meant to be from the start, because we're running out off time and there's no other day to find its way. We have gone too far to find a way out of this puzzle.

maybe I care too much after all... 

Graduation.

I really don't know what to tell about this day, I woke up really early to get my hair and make up done, because the ceremonial started on 7:30 am. Once again, 7:30 AM! can you believe that? And to make it worse,  Angga, a friend of mine who I asked to give me a ride insisted that we should be going at least at 7. and by 7 am my hair was still untouched. So I decided to go with Icis instead. Icis' home my the salon weren't far away so  went there by becak. But the becak was pretty far, I walked for about a hundred meters, with Kebaya, makeup, and slippers. People stared at me strangely.  Alright you might don't wanna hear about my morning anymore..

So we went there by Icis' car, her father gave us a ride, but we were the last to arrive, the ceremony was already started so by the time we entered the room, everyone noticed and turned their head on us.
The graduation was not that great. It was fun indeed, but it was not memorable enough. I didn't even cry.  We took photos with almost everyone, said our goodbyes and gratitude to our teacher but that was it. By the time it was finished and people started heading home, I asked my self 'So this is it?'
It was too much of ceremony at first and nearing the end it was just 'blurry', I kept thinking it shouldn't end just like something awesome should be happening but nothing really happened. Just some random police man suddenly went up to the stage and sang.

Probably my biggest regret was, no one sang any song about Farewell. You know I really did expect some songs like 'Sheila On 7 - Kisah Klasik Untuk Masa Depan', but no one sang that. too bad.

But above all of those things, I was really happy to see all of them again, I really felt like hugging everyone even ones whom I never spoke with

Good Bye 7 Generation, and Thank You for the last 3 Years.
May the next time we meet, we'll already be a success person <3

Kages

How BADASS is this?!

Paul McCartney - Blackbird

in order to celebrate Paul McCartney's Birthday

Blackbird singing in the dead of night
Take these broken wings and learn to fly
All your life
You were only waiting for this moment to arise

Black bird singing in the dead of night
Take these sunken eyes and learn to see
all your life
you were only waiting for this moment to be free

Blackbird fly, Blackbird fly
Into the light of the dark black night.

Blackbird fly, Blackbird fly
Into the light of the dark black night.
Blackbird singing in the dead of night
Take these broken wings and learn to fly
All your life
You were only waiting for this moment to arise,
You were only waiting for this moment to arise,
You were only waiting for this moment to arise

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it's a The Beatles' song, one of my favorite song, always calm me down and really comforting. I love the lyrics and everything about this song.

a very old picture, taken by accident, really weird

numb

Hey you, thank you for what you did today, I feel numb
I want to be angry, mad, and maybe sad but instead  feel numb, it's like I still couldn't believe it is actually happening. Thank you, I trusted you, I really did but I guess I should had known better.
Thanks.
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on the side note, please  I'm really curious about your explanation

'Ottoke'

'Ottoke' is an Korean word which means 'What to do?' if you watch Korean Dramas without dubbing I swear you'll hear that word a lot. I don't know, seems like Korean likes to ask 'What to do?' every time a problem comes. Anyway that's not what I want to talk about in this post-
"What to do?" -- what to do now that I no longer have to study?
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Yesterday I bought two novels, which are finished by now and I kinda regret it because now I have nothing to read.
The first one is 'Remember When' by Winna Efendi, and the second one is 'I for You' bu Orizuka. Both of the writers are my favorite. Winna Efendi wrote 'Ai' (which is one of my favorite teenlit ever) and Refrain. While Orizuka wrote those old novels when I was in Junior High School such as 'Summer Breeze' and 'High School Paradise'

By the way, don't expect me write a review, you know I can't do it.

Both of them are great, go buy it and read!

- The first book was good and a pleasure to read. The story was a little bit anticlimax and as usual sadness tone is everywhere. The problem is, the name of the main male character is exactly like my friend's name. and this friend's characteristic has nothing similar to one in this novel. BUT it didn't stop me to vision this one friend as the main character. I tried to stop, I really did but I failed. I ended up feeling nothing while reading it. In sad and serious scene, I felt almost blank. I wanted to be sad, to feel the emotion but I could not picture my friend doing that kind of scene! laugh all you want but it really sucks

- The Second one is really good! it's kind of ridiculous in the start. I almost stopped reading it and decided I shall not read TeenLit anymore, but I went on and then  found that the story isn't as shallow as I thought it would be. It's really sad. There are so many parts that can make you tear up.

 good books are good friends indeed.

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Okay, after finishing the books, I went back to my old habit. My very own nirvana, my laptop, colorful christmas light, darkened room, coffee, speaker and most importantly internet! lol

Flo Rida - Club Can't Handle Me

To match the celebration post earlier I'm gonna post this song

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I memorize every single word of this song, even the rap part.
This kind of song usually never catches my ear, not a big fan of neither David Guetta nor Flo rida.
But this song somehow always sounds magical to me. The first time I heard it was in Step up 3D, this song came up in the scene when Moose was being introduced to New York City, a city that used to be my big obsession (still). Somehow I teared up at that scene! weird huh? and then I searched this song and officially listed it as one of my favorite song ever. 
BTW, Step Up 3D is really great! the dances are awesome and it also has the coolest and most adorable dancer in the world ADAM SEVANI! I really can't get enough of him lol

alright Imma stop right here.

IT'S DONE! FINISH! END!

Hooray! Cheer some more! Pour some wine! Throw the confetti!

Well, I had just done the SNMPTN yesterday, I am not really sure about how well I did, but let's just be optimistic and hopeful. The point of this post is, I AM FINALLY FREE!!!
Welcome to the nights of watching DVDS, TV SHOWS, MOVIES and I am going back to the Land of Fire, The Hidden Leaf Village, My dearest Konoha.

Good bye those nights of studying 'till my eyes became sore. Goodbyes to that guilty feeling every time I surf the internet. I am free.

Okay enough with the cheering and applause-

I had done my best yesterday, I really did. Now all I could do is leaving it to Allah SWT. I am sure Allah will give me the best. And for anyone who read this, please pray for me to be a student of ITB, the institute that has been a dream, a goal of mine since years ago. Or maybe the least you can do is saying 'Amin'

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